AN: AS previously disgussed my story had nothing to do with the season finale in which Hagen died he is still alive in my story though he and Caliegh are over

Calliegh had been sitting in the break room alone sipping her tea for almost three hours now.
She stared straight ahead not moving not speaking just breathing.
Alex soon walked in to sit beside her on the couch.
"Calliegh...Baby?what's wrong?"Alex asked rubbing her back.
"Horatio...he.."She trailed off bringing her right hand slowly to her lips remembering.
"He what?"Alex asked still in shock.
"He kissed was so provacative so...wonderful"
"Oh...honey look it's no surprise that you enjoyed it or that he kissed you"
"It isn't"
"Lord no.everybody knows how you two feel the only one who doesn't is you two"
"And how does he feel?"Calliegh asked looking at Alex.
"I'm not expert now but I know Horatio and I've seen the way he looks at you when he thinks no one is watching"Alex said standing and walking to get some tea.
"And how does everyone think I feel?"Calliegh asked turning to look at Alex.
"Well let's see you look at him the same way..."Alex trailed off knowing she didn't need to say more.
"I love him...Alex"Calliegh said looking at the cup in her hands.
"I know you do...but that doesn't matter the one who needs to know is Horatio"Alex sat by her again with her own tea.
"I would tell him in fact I was going to I swore to myself if I survived I would but I'm scared Alex about his feelings"
"After he kissed you,nearly drowned to save you and gave you the valiant speech in the interrogation room how can you have any doubt"
"I don't remember much Alex it's like it was a dream I remember being pulled from the water then it's all foggy up until I realised I was under a table"
"Honey trust me Horatio loves you...rather or not he'll admit it is something different give it a shot"
Calliegh nodded she knew Alex was right.
Just then the door opened Horatio was standing there.
"Caliegh...Hagen is you want to see him?"Horatio asked bitterly.
"oh uhm...yes"Calliegh said standing nervously.
Horatio moved aside and Hagen rushed in Alex smiled at Horatio as she left.
"CALLEIGH MY DEAR OH I JUST HEARD ARE YOU OK!"He asked rushing in she backed up quickly.
"I'll let you two alone"Horatio said it was painful to see them together.
"No Horatio...please don't go"Her blue eyes held something fear maybe.
Horatio nodded and walked over to get some coffee.
John and Caliegh sat on the couch.
"oh Cal I'm so sorry baby are you ok?"John asked.
"I'm fine John"
"I was so worried when I heard you were missing and then to learn they wanted to punish Horatio"
John was cut off when Horatio interrupted.
"John...did you say they wanted to punish me?"Horatio asked.
"Well of course he did I mean everybody knows how you feel about her"John said looking at Horatio.
"John...we never found out it was a he and not even Calliegh knows why how did you?"Horatio asked walking over to him.
"Well.."John was interrupted when Calliegh shot to her feet backing away.
"NO CALLIEGH I DIDN'T DO IT!"John yelled rising in anger.
"John calm down"Horatio said softly.
"John Hagen you're under arrest"Horatio stepped forward and took John's arm and cuffing his hands.
Calliegh slowly shook her head.
"YOU'RE WORTHLESS YOU KNOW THAT!BEFORE ME NO MAN EVER EVEN LOOKED AT YOU!"He yelled even louder as Horatio handed him off to another officer.
Horatio shut the door so to muffle John's protests and turned to Calliegh.
She was standing watching John fight the officers through the glass door her right hand covering her mouth and tear rolling down her cheeks.
"Calliegh...don't look at him"Horatio said softly blocking her veiw and walking in front of her.
Slowly and carefully he reached out and pulled her tiny trembling form to him.
She stood shaking with tears rolling down her face her arms were between them his were around her shoulder.
"John...he...I should have known...why didn't I know Horatio why was I so blind?"She asked crying harder.
"shhh it's ok and there was no way you could have known"
"Yes there was he was so violent so obssesive and possesive when we dated when we broke up it was worse"
"'s ok it's over now and I promise he won't ever hurt you again"Horatio said pushing her away gently to look at her.
He took her soft tiny hands in his bigger rough ones and looked into her sad deep eyes.
"cal..."He started but trailed off to lean in closer.
"I'm glad we're alone actually I wanted to talk to you about something"She said jumping and pulling her hands from hi.
"Yeah..ummm ok what's the matter?"He asked.
"I...there's this guy...and I kind of ...I love him I have for a long time and I think i mean I've heard he feels..the same"
"And you want to tell him but you're scared he'll reject you"Horatio finished.
"yeah but see the problem is I've known him...forever we're also close friends I don't want to ruin that"
"Calliegh...I think you should tell Eric how you of luck"Horatio smiled then turned to leave.
"Eric?No Horatio I meant..."She grabbed his arm and stopped.
"You meant who?"He asked turning to face her.
Deciding to let her actions speak she took a shaky breath got on her tip toes and kissed him.
Horatio didn't take long to respong his hands went into her long blonde hair while she left hers rest on his chest.
Calliegh even though she started was still shocked it was too perfect he was gentle with her it drove her crazy his hands lightly going through her hair his soft kiss she wanted more.
Finally he broke the kiss and began kissing her neck his hands going to her waist her hands gripping his shoulders.
"I love you"She whispered moving her head to lean aginst his.
"I love you too beautiful...what about John?"He asked chewing slightly on her ear.
"He had one flaw besides being violent"
"Which is"
"He wasn't you"She said as he raised his head to look at her.
Smiling he softly put his hand on her cheek.
She smiled back a genuine smile.
"what are you thinking?"She asked.
"How much I missed that beautiful smile"He said honestly.
Calliegh smile brighter putting her forehead against his giggling as he put his arms around her waist and picked her up spinning.