

You Don't Know The Half Of It



7. Tanya

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The next morning, well, let's say it came quickly. After putting Lila to bed, Carlisle and Esme left, claiming Carlisle had an early day at work. Emmett, Jasper, Alice and Rose hung around til about ten and then headed out. Emmett said something about seeing me tomorrow.

After they left, all I could do was tread off to my bed and collapse onto my covers.

I was awoken by small hands touching me cheek. I opened my eyes and saw Lila, in her Little Mermaid pajamas, standing on the side of my bed touching me face to wake me up. She smiled when my eyes opened. She looked excited.

"I saw you in my dreams!" She told me.

"How nice for you." I muttered. It was mean, I know, she was just a little kid. But it was seven in the friggin morning! I never got up before eleven, unless I was catching a plane.

"Did you see me in your dreams?" She asked, struggling to pull herself up on my bed. I finally gave in and lifted her up so she was sitting next to me on my comforter. I honestly couldn't recall anything from my dreams. I beleive I was in too deep a sleep to have dreams last night.

"I didn't have any dreams." I sighed, rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

"That's not true." She shook her small head. "I heard you. You were sleep talking. Mommy does it all the time. You said 'Bella, Bella, Lila.' See, I was in your dreams! And mommy too!"

said that? I didn't take Lila for a liar, so I simply shook it off and got up to take a shower. When I was dressed and in my kitchen, I found Lila sitting at the counter, holding a book. She jumped up when she saw me.

"I almost forgot!" She cried. "Mommy said to give this to you when I got here. She said it would explain everything."I nodded, eager now, and took the small black book.

I told Lila to go watch TV and I sat at my table and opened the book. There, inside the cover was a small peice of paper. I read it, schocked to see what was on that page.

Dear Edward, I know that you honestly had no idea you had a daughter. I didn't know until my fourth month when I started to blow up like a freakin balloon. I'm sorry I just left her with you, but I seriously had no other choice. Jack was in a car accident and is in Emergency Care in Tenessee. The hospital doesn't want kids under ten hanging around, and I had no where else to turn. My mom is with Jack and I, Dino couldn't care less about her (Not that I would ever leave Lila with that idiot) and I haven't got a clue where my dad is. I know you were never great with kids, but I have a good feeling you'll be great with Lila. She's always wanted to meet you.

You may not really know Lila, but you will. And you'll love her. I trust you, Edward. No matter how conceited you are, you've always been good about taking care of the people you love. This book is a diary I kept while I was pregnant with Lila. It has my innner most personal thoughts. I think you might enjoy what you read.

Remember, Edward. Take good care of my baby. I love her. And beleive it or not, I love you too.



Ps: Say hi to Alice for me. Oh, and Lila, being the mini me that she is, hates shopping. So, don't have Alice dragging her all around the mall.

Pss: She doesnt like to be alone. She's just like you, in that way.

Oh, right! In Lila's suitcase there are eight videos. There all about Lila. Watch them if you'd like.

I couldn't fathom it. She loved me. She really, truly loved me. It couldn't be true. She had said unspeakable things to me that night. Horrid, nasty insults that I frankly never beleived Bella had in her. I mean, she could be a good a bitch as any, but she was sweet underneath it all. I flipped to the first page in the book.

June 6

Oh my god. No, seriously. God, why do you hate me? Why? I was a good girl. I admit, I never really went to church regularly, but I went on Easter! That has to count for something! You know I'm all alone. Why, oh why, are you doing this? I can't be pregnant. I just can't.

Mom is going to kill me. I mean, I'm only seventeen. I can't raise a child! I can't provide a stable enviorment for a little kid! I don't have enough money for an apartment, all my money went to college. I guess I could move in with Jack...but would he want a baby crawling around? I can't stay home.

Not with Dino on his drunken rages and mom always at work. I don't have freinds. Well, besides Alice. But she's Edward's sister! This is too frustrating!

Damn. This means Yale is DEFINATELY out of the picture.

I had to chuckle at Bella's first entry. I could see her now, getting all flustered. Her nose scrunching, her breathing picking up into small frustrated huffs. She was so cute when she was angry. I snorted as I thought this. If I thought she was cute when she was angry, I must have been hyptonized by her beauty the day after I got her pregnant. She was beyond furious that day.

I sauntered into the living room, grinning like a mad man. Lila was on the couch, watching something called Dragon Tales. What in hells name was that? I grabbed the remote off the coffee table and switched it to ESPN. Lila whined.

"I was watching that!" She protested.

"Well, I'm watching that!" I told her, pointing at the TV.

"That wasn't very nice." She pouted.

"It wasn't mean either." I agreed.

"Yes it was!" She exclaimed.The phone rang. I sighed as Lila changed the channel when I got up to answer it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Edward, Tanya's here to see you." John sounded more then unpleasant.

I glanced nervously at Lila. She was smiling as a small pink dragon lifted a girl with brown hair into the air and flew. I sighed. I might as well get it out of the way.

"Go ahead and send her up."I went back into the living room and turned the TV completely off. Lila groaned.

"Why'd you do that?"

"My," insert throat clearing here "friend will be here in a minute. I need you to go to your room."

"Who is he?" She asked.

"It's a she." I corrected her, fixing the pillows and putting the cereal away in the kitchen. Lila's eyes narrowed.

"Mommy said you have a lot of girlfriends." She accused.

"Well, your mommy is right. Now go." I answered.

"She's always right." Lila nodded.

"I find that hard to imagine." I disagreed, though I knew it was true.Lila stared at me with cold, distant eyes.

"Just go answer the door." She ordered, before stomping off to her room. I almost had to do a double take to make sure it wasn't Bella stomping away.

A second later, the doorbell rang. I suppose Lila inheritated her pyshic abilities from her aunt. And Jack, come to think of it. I opened the door and grinned when I saw the bleach blond hair and bright blue eyes.

"Eddie!" She sang, throwing herself into my arms.

Lila Swan

I heard the door open and a voice that sounded like you shoved peas up her nose. I opened my door and looked in the hallway. Daddy was making a kissy face at a barbie looking woman. She had blond hair, blue eyes and looked like she lived in the Malibu Dream House. I almost gagged when Daddy leaned in and kissed her. It was gross!

This wasn't supposed to happen. I always wanted to meet my daddy. I saw him in singing videos sometimes, and on the TV but never in person. When Uncle Jacky got in the car boom, and mommy sent me here, I was soooo excited! But now I'm mad. Why was daddy making those slurpy noises with that lady? Mommy says it gross when you chew with your mouth open and that's what it sounded like they were doing.

What did Uncle Jacky call it? Swapping spit? Ew.

I huffed and crossed my arms. Mommy says I have her daddy's angry face. I guess that makes me happy. I never met mommy's daddy and mommy only knew him for ten years. But still, I've always wanted to see him too. Grandma says I have his mouth. Whatever that means.

I was still in my jammies. I mean, it was only nine o'clock! Why this lady here so early? I went to my dresser, where Auntie Alice put my clothes away in. I pulled out my favorite dress. It was green like my eyes. I put it on and brushed my hair just like mommy showed me. When I was all finished, I went out in the hallway.

Barbie lady and daddy were still making those noises and didn't see me. I glared at the back of that lady's head. She was wearing a short red dress, that didn't cover her butt. You could see her underwear! Did her underwear rip? It was just a string. I didn't have any string undies. Mommy said those were for old, mean girls.

Was this lady mean then? She had a lot of cakey stuff on her face. I think it was called make up. I had some play make up at home. Grandma got me it for my birthday! Mommy said I looked very pretty, but this lady didn't. Uncle Jacky said there was a word for girls like this. What was it? Skunk? No, no that's a yucky animal. Skonk? No, that doesn't make sense. But it was a funny word. I giggled.

Daddy leaned away from the woman and looked over her shoulder.

"I told you to stay in your room!" He made a hissy noise at me like Dino's cat.

Mommy said not to call Dino grandpa. He wasn't my grandpa.The mean lady turned around and looked confused. She had bright, sticky looking red stuff on her lips. Oh no! Did she know her boobies were falling out? I don't think she did. Hey! I remember what that word was now!

"Who are you?" She asked with her pea nose voice again. It was annoying.

"I'm Lila." I said, staring at her weird sparkly eyes.

"Eddie, why is she here?" The sparkled eye lady asked.

"His name is Edward, not Eddie." I told her, before Daddy could say anything. "And that's my daddy."

The lady's mouth fell open. She had red stuff on her teeth.

"You have a daughter?" She seemed mad.

"Tanya, I just found out." Daddy said, looking worried. Tanya? Is this daddy's girlfriend?

"My Uncle Jacky said there's words for lady's like you." I told her. Her eyes got all small.

"What words?"

"A skank. And a whore. Oh, and a gold digger!" I remembered. "I digged for gold at the beach once. I couldn't find any."

The lady made a gaspy sound and grabbed daddy's hand.

"Eddie! Don't just stand there! Do something!" She had a serious voice. Like mommy does when Jacky and I do something bad.

"Like what?" Daddy asked. He was smiling, and looked like he wanted to laugh. At Tanya's cakey face?

"I don't know! Hit her!" Tanya looked mad.

Hey, wait! Hit me? I could take her. Uncle Jacky showed me how to punch. I gave a girl who called me poor a black eyes once! Mommy wasn't happy about that.

"Tanya, she doesn't even know what those words mean." Daddy wasn't smiling anymore. He looked mad.

"Eddie, she called me a whore!" She made a stammery noise like when mommy's CD player doesn't work right.

"You are a whore." I made a growly sound that I heard daddy make before.

"Alright, alright. Lila, go to your room. Tanya, go on out to the living room. I'll be there in a second." Daddy told her, as he lead me to my room.

"What's a whore?" I asked when he was inside the room and shut the door.

"A not nice word." He answered. He grabbed a marker from my desk I was coloring at last night, and wrote something on my mean words list. I looked at it.



Gold Digger

"But Uncle Jacky says those words and he's not mean!" I made my pouty face. It always works on Grandma and Uncle Jacky.

"There mean words when little girls say it." Daddy looked at the door.

"I'm a big girl." I huffed.

"Well, be a big girl and stay in here until Tanya leaves." He told me, with a serious face. He looked kind of mad again when he looked at the door. "It won't be long."

"Are you and her having a play date?" I asked, sitting on my big bouncy bed.

"No. Tanya has to go home." He said, before he went out and shut the door.

Oh well. Maybe I can color daddy a picture.