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without doubt one neil simons best plays turned movies full great characters memorable dialog johnathan silverman makes great screen version young eugenehe played matthew broderick stagethis first simons autobiographical trilogy followed wonderful biloxi blues closes tv movie broadway bound say movie flaws would maybe characters sometimes usually speak obvious dialog thats alright great dialog rent little gem sorry

im suicidal im definitely existential crisishow one deal knowledge universe one day end find solace idea try best were alive let stress suicidal verge pulling chris mccandless

calmness deathwhy feel wrong calm right now im alone home minutes away ending life without leaving single letter behind fucking fail dont even know anymore screw that wont fail dont know im typing anymore even know loved life loved living love all wishing best you

never suicidal lifein years never thought redflag much past months like number thing mind time dont goals anymore dad doesnt understand im going really doesnt even try idea anymore look mirror dont recognize myself struggling nobody seems notice plan ready go stop pussy it cannot continue like this agony i dont care grammar punctuation

took photos damn im kinda hot ya know mean dont mean im feeling confident

dont want live anymorehello im struggling suicidal thoughts feel alone lot mean friends guess kinda consider acquaintances manly people close im band with ex true friend feel like people dont relate too im years old smoke drink lot manly numb world around me dont get wrong love enjoy beer find drinking much work good job im unhappy working midnights midnights years cant get better shift im it hardly ever sleep maybe hours day really gets years it girlfriend argument something fucking stupid usual ended relationship stress time fight freaked out regret dearly said really mean things hate it would constantly argue everything seems would make feel like cant anything right love much miss im trying hold together stress life routine gets me hate myself hate job hate sleeping hate world sometimes evil ways ive held head several times cant get pull trigger dont know anymore feel empty inside work hours ive sense pm yesterday slept hours yesterday life sucks dont know even talking this guess feels somewhat good get chest makes hate wanting fucked sounds first time ive thought though sat gun hand desire hurt anyone myself sucks ive smoked entirely many cigarettes typing dont even post probably try lay keep thinking ending it im broken dont know fix myself

feel useless society really know going doi fired every job pick depression gets best end miserable matter do start showing late lack enthusiasm super slow overall give fuck attitude last time tried go college ended suicide attempt taking financial emotional redflag debt lasted way long handle mention credit card also paid credit score gone shit try get professional help end answering calls showing appointments process takes forever always stuck waiting start medication end trying use end lifethe one thing supposed passionate art love art since child got opportunity make money art a family friend requested portrait daughter took months finish hated it although loved paid me still put existential crisis hell going cannot even handle something love job tv definition bum live mom freeload playing video games nothing time two friends talk every months boyfriend seems love lot thinks help get life together one day needs realize really disappointment sure fix this know honestly stopped caring life long time ago live shame guilt acting like plan family friends ask itthe worst part cannot even talk without becoming extremely depressed overwhelmed f jobless school ambitions

first world problemshi always redflag understood people miserable feel like way out thought pretty sad living organism main goal survival depressed start going natural instincts terrifying lately started facing problems chose wrong college made life lot harder be mental completely went downhill past months im currently trying transfer also bright side met girl im currently dating love lot great also fights going college too may go different one kills me seems like like much anymore couldve avoided smarter college decisions feel suicidal mornings usually honestly want end life know peoples lives harder sound like privileged fucking piece shit realized lot harder kill thought would be seems like painless ways painless hard accomplish comment good ways end whatever

scale old girlfriend legal reasons purposes joke

want end suffering pleasei want end really cant take anymore didnt ask brought world suffering waking hours

antidepressant stopped workingive weeks fine want kill anymore still empty nobody loves nobody even cares now stopped working morning mom yelled me want die cant stand house hate family seen people really love two weeks want blamed everything want much pressure me fucking cares college right now want someone care right now cant even numb pain things like video games talking someones care about mom thinks bad me bad try communicate people actually fucking care about bad locked alone ever see friends see reason kill now ill always alone lie say get better wont die makes easier me nobody would even care

see soon boys turning porn taking homework folder way hiding porn want remember link hiding post going history looking hidden dont expect anyone care im gonna deleting reddit couple months cant think girl without thinking something sexual lmao im fucking neek see ya soon boys may god hardy times

husband wants divorce disable schizo useless spouse blame him think much want dieposted schizo subreddit relationship troubleshttpswwwredditcomrschizophreniacommentsevmnwhave_any_tips_for_schizos_in_relationships_with says want continue relationship felt close years over wanting help move kicking anything sat hours talking kept thinking much want die strength start over im broken now edit looks like going spend thanksgiving alone told want go hang family cant spend time around people losing ghosts

want die badlyi wish werent coward could go it ive lost family cat he absolute everything grieve loss everyday health really dont want go on feel hollow scared hurting people around committing redflag wish entirely alone could go without negative effects others

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enoughplease life stop already im sick shit on cant keep up cant keep anymore taking everything power walk door it plan im afraid it long wake find body cant learn him fair him cant take things pace people get mad try say needs needs worth it im worth it one last cuddle heads tomorrow weekend could then ill figure out much emotion cant anything it trying fix things makes worse cant keep up one sleeptomorrow get with even posting thisi even know maybe record outburst exists maybe feel like something say matters tonight something feel matters all know fair hes still grieving im selfish ass this im sorry im weak need bedthis much

college struggles rock bottomi started first course stem major weeks ago going well all enjoy it causing immense stress leaving derail entire life plan know do change major something interests me would something useless complete rock bottom life massive upturn great gf good health etc shattered now

slys best action film superbly enjoyable movie interesting characters solid performances renny harlins direction stylishly assured stallone rarely interesting action films certainly looks part terms action scenes one best action films year one thrilling enjoyable s definite genre classic stallone fan one look back fond memories plenty superb action sly prime action man form action lovers appreciate film hallmarks make good aciton film film looks great great support janine turner michael rooker john lithgow

ever awkward position listen friend talk something interest scared tell stop man hoping good time stop talking even kept nodding

im confused right normally lot black eyes yesterday did woke morning saw mirror something different realized black eyes gone ive since suddenly disappear fuck

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people always tell kill yourselfwhenever talk people suicidal thoughts always tell real explanation shouldnt ask say everyone sad yet temporary sadness cant even compare daily struggle go every day leads wanting kill myself thoughts

friends suicidal dont know dotwo people know suicidal one cuts arms constantly talks ending it tried end life occasions help prevent it sorry isnt post this please tell post it

want gone birthdaythis first time posing reddit birthday wednesday ive decided tonight want dead then im therapy nothing working want go sleep never wake up ive struggled self harming years first time days clean im throwing away tonight need work courage

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im sorry needed talkhi reading stuff afraid comment anything made throw away account im know teen years it get better im aware need somebody talk person usually talk trust kinda kept sane living high school experience talk feel pretty abandoned also feel really guilty feel selfish im holding trust anybody else getting drinking problem supply got cut cat never really also tried normal stuff life punching wall knuckles got swollen one teachers said something guidance counselor kinda like prevention post needed talk people felt know like thanks

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usmy friend wants die cant help her want die wont talk me friend trying balance us making two us feel worthless us want die question wholl crack first

survivor serious injury recently stubbed toe still recovering it please keep awards yourself medical advisor says live please dont worry

anyone agree doom relaxing videogame series mean anybody read play doom shoot everything moves incredibly simple fucking amazing

brotherthe last years agony senses word diagnosed kidney condition writhing pain flares up vomiting violently mother shouts hell broken loose saying caused condition nothing make better despite fact ever get better failed get second year levels went college left year course wanted carry appeal faded work father electrician plan start apprenticeship electrician mother however wants gone constantly reminding failures comparing everyone else work uni feel like thing holding back fact care brother

friends reached puberty turned recently friends begun process idk bug want start it unlike some sometimes cry night think it shouldnt do im also avarage height friends taller annoy it theyve said sorry still think it ive searched methods grow faster that say mostly genetics soothe pain away different sound like year old dickheads online treat like garbage know people online idiots shouldnt listen back mind time wanna use vc please god help

want overi dedicated relationship girl like also likes me talking girl several years finally built courage ask wanted spend time together said no supposed do tried exercising working person fee uncomfortable skin almost like dont know could know anyone else please help want someone get old im aging fear im slave fate

wait posting pictures isnt weekend

im bored also thinking friday night mean brag got date crush b

movie really well made one great looking passionately directed tell every shot thought executed perfection lovers cinema especially great watch especially able appreciate beauty passion cinema put itbr br its hard place movie one label really drama really thriller really comedy instead movie style things way necessarily follow rules cinema features many different elements many different genres combinedbr br but like movie main character movie gets sort slow boring parts artistic style directing tries conceal story actually quite simple one movie relied solely style overall atmosphere created movie make movie horrible anything prevents true absolute mustsee parts movie also feels trying poetic tries let images speak much itself feels bit overdone parts though part movie still works beautifullybr br it features great camerawork unique storytelling makes original well great film watchbr br

talk less hate boring talk regret everything feel like shared asked many questions talking people complicated hate

wants vc need someone talk school work talk abt whatever want one thing gotta atleast

want love people butif experience people past ish years going is going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything but im still scared afterlife ever able rest never bothered again listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved otherwise lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved are standards hard work teams hold others to reciprocate people ever keep promises you know else say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work like play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit too wish someone would prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing up part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible for making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable

cute nah basically idea girlfriend im going dedicate notebook write every time hang out im going say day was did felt thinking know whole shabang well year im going give along favorite flowers favorite candy dont lot money cant get big fancy gift thought cute want feedback it ideas revisions

ever train thought sudden lose want back gosh dang brain wanna know thought plastic glue like lube models

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lets yeet adios dudes im going break mentally physically minutes

wasted strippers booze hotels past yeari inherited money blue k going strip clubs taking strippers hotels short trips weekend feel like idiot complete douchebag

nobody cares me everyone treats like nuicense want live world terrible things sure afterlife would rather jsut end see treated like shit idk put world full terrible things ruin it think gone would better everyone world good idk deserve it know post super edgy whatever really feel reality nothing live for want live life since nothing mine want live itthanks reading goodbye want live terribly cruel world

childhood best friend left amp im redflag watch basically grew together ever since moved here terrible childhood step father would always drink call bitch amp threaten me mom never showed cared tell loves me etc importantly ex best friend still alive today would come try cheer would crying wanting attempt time passed things started become weird started getting relationships slowly everything became distant still tried hang wouldnt engage conversations anymore even try like uninterested me think made believe wasnt important me text argument whole situation believes meant different paths said goodbye never made sense chose go different path rather tell feel broke me dont know life anymore friends drink everyday cut desperately hit myself really think wasnt good enough her please help

one days last night tried talk girlfriend worryfeeling ive feel like attempt talk explain problem brains pushed away wanted talk feel suck talking feelings made things worse im even really asking advice do ive feel like ruin everything try help

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fantasize parents giving blessing go ahead kill myselfthats pretty much want point love much theyre reason get right now wish could explain want sad needs happen daydream saying ok yes better everyone sitting fade overdose wish would stroke hair hold hand die thats fucking pathetic know im know absolutely way earth would let commit redflag watch part tempted ask anyway case

years ago saw remake sixties classic mini coopers first time remember liking lot now two years later shown television wanted know whether would still like much saw cinema well answer yesbr br the movie team robbers one final job venice italy plan flawless execution perfect escape work rest lives one problem take account someone within ranks like split loot wants keep himself even means kill rest crew one survive revenge one year later los angeles time surviving team members create smart devious plan steal back gold get revenge traitorbr br the story course original since remake original movie plenty goodies offer make forget that typical heist action movie certainly one better ones kind action nice landscapes venice real eyecandy story ok special effects stunning even acting good something often see action movie must admit really liked saw give movie well deserved

deserve thisim hell im depressed live middle nowhere best friend significant stabbed back different times past month replaced within week ive got nobody now little brother attacks constantly father screams im oldest child mother hates me get called names anywhere go ive got reason live anymore last month life finally going well everything fell apart this

boyfriend hour please keep occupied kill myselfi want badly please

anyone else barely hanging time im clinging memories better times constantly thing keeping going ive developed extremely strong bonds inanimate things car tv characters take place massive whole joy missing life idk is fear im going breakdown front someone soon gonna come out make worse give strength keep in dig ever growing whole push

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girl dont know well yet said thank hung like said rlly fun thank you good time ive never someone say b girls maybe try one cause thought super sweet made attracted

mom found bunch old pill packages pills almost year mom convinced new going overdose tried telling time recent says lying grounded friends goes drawers searches room currently feel like granted form privacy outright said going continue going room convinced right lying drug problem past kind behavior would normal years ago almost years sobriety hard drugs work put mend relationship family feel like effort ignored mom continues call liar tomy face always pushes religion me allow vaccinated due believing vaccines mark beast yet one needs help ready leave house parents allow get id cannot even work save apartment literal tyrants run life parents never believe

knowim going save problem this im letting guys know im done life im fucking lonely nobody ever since girlfriend broke able happy know im never going happy one guess good bye im gone world transcend next one goodbye everyone

sort liked columbo movie atmosphere real thriller like approach even times reminded filmnoir movie first minutes so really nice done good old fashioned way right camera angles use light mean instantly movie brilliant one though solid enough consider good late columbo movie entry definitely better movie average later columbo movie entrybr br years previous columbo movie appearance george hamilton returns play main lead opposite peter falk murderer total different new role course liked role good columbo villain gave good old lieutenant good competition nice sequences together problem modern new columbo movies always sort feature good well known actor opposite peter falk movie obviously suffer problem must say though movie feature peter falk best certainly played character better performance quite consistent enough within movie probably also due movie director daryl duke also directed really dreadful movie taipan among many projectsbr br it rather good enjoyable story fact sort plot cover murder used earlier columbo movie also help course got used movie columbo playback nevertheless course also still plenty enough original moments story even though course essence every columbo movie less same oh well made columbo series great consistent aint broke fix itbr br it also true within movie clues usual left lieutenant mean movie murderer stupid sloppy see writers overly enthusiastic others make movie story bad fact perhaps even makes enjoyable see columbo hard work discovering kind small important clues luckily movie also filled enjoyable effective relieving columbocomedybr br simply good late columbo movie entrybr br

everything went hill fastlast night typical got work feeling kind depressed wanted hurt sister said could crash place ive depressed suicidal since way anyways around four sister asks watch son get nap work goes upstairs get call dad id kicked online school second year online id transfered local high school bullying im extremely socially awkward get along authority figures constant battle teachers well gotta go back highschool im supposed senior nearly credits much mental hospitals since seventh grade ive never thought redflag would best option now always just well option seems like im gonna high school drop loser life really worth it edit id talk parents father told go home pissed theyd think looking attention way get trouble

depressed since teens keeps getting worse nothing interests all good job work busy feeling incompetent due many big errors making ever talk boyfriend want burden friends pain find hard continue genuine conversation would feel selfish dump feelings onto since barely energy converse want overwhelm scare bf either since also dealing depression holding feeling myself really close relationship family days spend time alone room doggy sometimes socially withdrawn even know speakwrite feeling fake forced continue work pay rent want live anymore

idea giving birth scary pls

normal start day asked was card worth wait answered yes cried park jokingly said of course did tiny tears x asked did take photos chocolates said yes babe sent photo still online last messages wasnt read next message sent day wasnt sent anymore offline thought getting ready work phone died network hour got worried sent messages social media has know

fuck star signs date someone favourite element acceptable like thorium plutonium theyre good based marry right now like uranium thats red flag leave relationship immediately

im pathetici turned entered st year highschool days ago depression dysphoria anxiety pretty bearable months holidays come back one crippling anxiety prevents building meaningful relationships friendships either forced faked sake someone talk school ended shortly horribly hate people area cant form relations online due brave enough say something group chat like public discord cycle responding gt guilt gt responding manage talk someone also feel like never say right thing burden everyone includes family my mom got huge fight grandma stay touch even mention third family also strangers such people staying behind queue shop would finished shopping earlier there im also trans guy misgendered really hurts cant really avoid like summer parents overprotective generally feel powerless strengthens get it hopelessness example moms telling serious cleaning reorginising room least month ive done maybe fifth whole thing time keeps telling day shell come herself pressuring fear even invasion privacy make stressed prevent able even think mess room without breakdown passions pursue hobbies except browsing reddit watching youtube sometimes playing nintendo activities enable think real life idea want life tried following do want fun plan worked free time school makes impossible anything think future worry ill doing im lazy posts like rgetmotivated sadden im unable things like people do school subject enjoy english im european second language even felt proud passed cae test june remembered years probably need translators anyways thing im good used around wizz kid fell grace fell hard mentioned thing im kind good languages love failing learn literally anything years german middle school attemting teach italian using online resources month getting lazy giving up feel like failure potential never used someone could great goddamn lazy everyones something im avoiding work schools started new teachers new expectations soon start giving pop quizes asking questions answer live front whole class grade i forgot called english used enjoy going therapist someone talk recently ive started lie omitiom stuff understanding trans thoughts defend opinions ive avoiding certaun subjects wishing time go faster meetings makes feel guilty parents paying even though also get pocket money generally feel like deserve lot things ive got makes feel guilty anxious even know im way calm listen bob ross hells sake think world would better never born

tour busso considering getting passenger tour bus taking vote go every night free park lake park loaded tour bus picnic every day much per day collecting list interested people maybe happen get people

homies need hug clear inclusive get homie

never loved life wish someone did feel lonely worthless always end crying sleep wonder feels loved

bit puzzle lot artsy lynch crowd tend try write kind meaningless crude side project lynchs like lynch passing gas real pieces film art well may fart one intriguing farts catch whiff embarrassed admit enjoybr br dumbland distilled beyond art aspects modern life laugh it took seriously would go nuts hook it smell it taste it feel agonies unreasoning stupidities express medium choose thats called art art dumb dumbland

lose suicidal thoughts askyou cant really way lose them hold tied cage tearing apart invulnerable take care let escape im buying electric guitar soon start love hearing heavy metal it started appreciate things love without heavy metal able hide fear rage anxiety maybe even depression think im struggling winter depression asa spring comes act normal im trying say find hobby it love it live it life loving love lol without cannot normal try something like even bad matter one thing tho drugs alcohol ciggarets nothing people die painful cancer parents edge getting one see it years old happy own friends internet friends anyone feeling miserable feel free write message good day live life way love

say excellent end excellent series never quite got exposure deserved asia far best cop show best writing best cast televison ever end great era sorry see go

thoughts starting come backhey reddit sorry wall text recently past weeks so thought redflag become far stronger ive ever felt before im scared end it dramatic sounds ive come close before written notes driven bridge follow through time though thoughts strong im scared tell anyone want worry me ive emotionally physically abusive relationships since trapped them everyone went shrugged told stop wimp best friend believed guys lies truths lost loads friends lies ex told feel lovely currently wonderful guy totally understanding told far lives one exs though makes hard forget did told boyfriend full extent though blame still friends guy dad left since run house mother done much meand want sound ungrateful that puts much pressure me billsupkeeplegal stuff works two jobs keep us afloat though dad pretty much interest life brothers two brothers aspergers im pretty much responsible lives turn out find jobs find college whatever them suffered paranoia past believing people going kill me finally told mum it shrugged off theres many situations like that especially relationships past ignored told want hear it feel like give family much see people time myself provide them work two jobs college lot cope with even see tired think ask more theres things see way out ive told makes feel cant cope care thought ending becoming great really cant see way anymore since ive telling cant keep dad house care know fix this please help something stupid need find way this thank reading this

confessed crush went good little bit good close friends platonic relation thing coz im asexual knows im ace thats mutually decided

something wrong me dont know something wrong not lying like thinking deaths shit hit me seen many family members die even close friends die always thought would react overwhelming way whenever howeverit doesnt affect all rd grade best friend died asthma attack gathered us gym honor everyone looking me didnt care all spent long girl didnt care died another time wasnt long ago dog years old loved him passed told didnt care thought dying figured would freak out didnt shown picture soldiers heads cut dad didnt want show me stepmom kinda forced too thought id freak didnt gore doesnt bother anyway used look gorey pictures fun find fake many emotions people dont think im weird situations im practically pro fake tears know anti social personality disorder thing however definitely sociopath im type person feels bad bad guy movie something goes wrong dont know normal not talk someone

actually good dayi dont know else really post this usually days school shit thought would today minutes school started realized forgot math homework also big test th period smaller one th ib school also mile run th period test around week write notes single lined piece paper since big history test forgot home thought doomed that instead day absolute shit finished work early st period finished math homework since sub math second period thought fucked mile run managed get it felt really proud since last mile well test th period parts multiple choice online test written part paper got multiple choice missing one question google forms saw grade instantly felt like also knew stuff written part th period didnt even need notes test knew stuff felt really happy uncommon also first time years got new lego sets ive always fan lego boosted mood well maybe things change maybe wont today great day me though hope someone else feels like do

feel like shit help meim awful human deserve live get mad things life throw hit things im mad release frustrations get want feel like brat never spoiled want kind person lot things mind come every years make me say depressed since diagnosed sad want hit myself kill myself cant seem it always looking ways actually going it friends know things me want kind person want change want help life sucks cant afford therapy want parents finding even could idk maybe im acting holidays near get wrong hate holidays worst things happened during want get guess anyway made far reading this thank you sometimes want heard feel free comment drag me

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go doctors go doctorsso basically im pretty sure anxiety depression lot stress im mainly depressed stressed past like years im girl live uk ive whole therapy thing million different people never really helped feel fine im talking ive left room feel always shitty havent seen therapist year hate it hate speaking answering questions hate telling stupid life story reading load files hate everything it like really nice people dont hate hate therapy really doesnt help me basically want try taking medication im dont know whether prescribe anything ive given pills sleep even though didnt really need problem wasnt couldnt get sleep avoided completely past week ive basically slept day watched netflix night havent really gone all want try pills see help want kill almost day dont want go doctor tell feel talk someone months dont know tbh cant deal bullshit anymore oh yeah also im actually diagnosed things thats part problem bc idk actually diagnosed first what

depressive haze like year smoking much pot every single day great idea family member get cancer around beginning covid kind broke me going therapy taking meds neither happening anymore isolated old friends long even know would want hear me live parents unemployed let bedroom become huge mess sure cockroach nest bed cannot believe let get bad ashamed tremendously bad

titlei feel worthless discernible live directions goals family hates me money shitty paying jobs mother tried kick day barely left room since dont know im going do ive laying bed wishing could end deep know could never im spineless always been feel broken never repaired im lazy cant anything right always fuck everything up im disgusting want end im tired feeling like every day pretending everything fine im tired happygolucky friend thats truly am despise myself feelings anxiety worthlessness go away feel like never ending cycle wont ever able break away from want go away

lovely movie it deeply reflects chinese underground bands current lives chinese culture traditionaled rock n roll music go highly recommend one but one thing wondering whether movie showed mainland sorta doubt d

kill without hurting family friendive needing long time now without hurting them anything put note lessen pain

im pro call crush like yo wanna like go walk sometime said shed love going walk like next week lets go

toxic relationship suicidal thoughts aftermath idk doi dont usually speak whats going life really go online tell anyone anything personal myself im usually reclusive try let life continue lately ive felt like im very dark place ive told opening forum help least help opening feel something read guess well ampxb heres big one ive never honest myself entire life battled sexuality gay straight bisexual ive bounced around entire life ive never chance explore gain comfort might be ive always relationship felt like wrong gender years ago found furry fandom accepting people felt home short started causes gaps life friends looking weird family asking questions clear never opened furry anyway hide directed me like sexuality lifestyle hobby people could relate too slowly faded away want friends family calling weirdo hid it still look lot art use help find comfort might be even begin start this year long relationship partner ftm early process hormones anything yet started dating still going well say lindsey first love nothing stopped us wanted together puppy dog stage strongest awhile fell apart partner struggled faithfulness lot relationship primarily internet friends also furry internet big part lives means internet friendships play big part well hard time remembering privateclosed relationship within first years th th year began make internet relationships making mistakes fueled mostly spite also begging attention anyone th year took break currently lived washington i taking care sick mother decided return california first week stopped talking one day sent message something forgotten me kept talking that began breakdown emotionally mother falling ill loneliness sudden change lifestyle year relationship began regret choices talked things end asked could try again distance try fixing things distance us test waters things come agreed began talking day night calls intimate videos shared still felt strong love other as year relationship you seemed like things getting better slowly months eventually moved california mother care equipped family hard first managed however never really talked months apart even though talked often lot days went without text call asked usually told family busy something eventually refusal talk happen time drew rift us one day shower decided pick phone browse chat histories time period look messages social media accounts went ultimate snoop found everything could month time sent nudes countless men stand wanted fun once lied multiple times sex another man countless times texting inbetween hours together im sick writing it remembering it but haunted years found out fought days nonstop think would mark end relationship right well no justified saying hurt break wanted get back breaking her and like idiot agreed her took blame convinced sex man me deserved abuse forced us take break ive struggled depression entire life ive never months time without feeling creep way life usually triggered something anything could big could small never really know happens fought feeling two years peroidic episodes accusing lindsey terrified would cheat again idk stayed guilt fast forward years weve together years total hate myself everything me annoy ones care cant stop talking idk why excitement eagerness ive never really known get carried away people tell jerk taking lighthearted teasing far without realizing feeling embarrassed hours even notice ass attitude towards life soured im often irritable upset roommates unreasonably dont much good say anything anymore ive gotten bad enough people around speak it used attractive cared appearance excited show off but ive gained lot weight last year nearly pounds nearing pounds even ive never disgusted myself problem im upset eat habit forever lot people im sure stop im paying it stopped wearing favorite clothes stopped taking shirt public stopped making video calls cant stand might look im constantly paranoid shell cheat again ask questions go silent ruin entire days frustration did every fight would break up get upperhand never true maybe days week spend together laugh two miserable know it cant let go coronavirus locked home last months straight ive left handful times supplies overall ive anxious leave house im scared getting sick ive depressed relationship lost job live unemployment sit around waiting next day shes picked social media again talking people hours plays apex legends every single day someone met online someone talks hours hours bed dinner everywhere never explains anything tells wants social life again stays almost year lost friends bad attitude family learned im questioning sexuality i dont know how cut entirely spend time waking am smoking weed every minutes sitting bedroom pm taking sleep aide fall asleep ive suffered nightmares regularly last year dont know anymore ive lost feeling im nub everything feel like husk autopilot thats breath air ive lost touch myself ive felt mental health suffer dont know how cant even describe whats happening anymore weeks ago sat car wondered could use kill without hurting others dont gun lindsey came garage wanting smoke weed seen sitting car trance focused dashboard staring nothing told truth without meaning too slipped accident coming whatever stuck in response was passive encourage me but didnt anything help time either laid bed hours thinking little seemed mean her little seemed mean her everyone ampxb dont even know wrote this hoped maybe saying myself typing out maybe could stop myself feel like inevitable eventually today broke again mean it idk ive sitting box days wondering theyre gone good time left read ignored entirely dont know anymore feel like control taking life dont want fight anymore dont want suffer dont want keep going everything ugly life race wars virus scares gays hated again conservatives rioting sexuality never got experience years whats point continuing life never even start write entire story attention forum people real problems im sorry post even here know else post this im desperate advice anything

spend time researching redflag methodsim unemployed refuse work job amplify depression want work walmart although im pressured family take job become leech brother would covering next months rent cant live shamebut perhaps people believe might able to im tired running around things best interest others im tired listening advice others taking it realizing never i wanted all instead use researching abilities know things im good at find effective way completely obliterating form consciousness person called ever possessed people hate me probably cant feel hate side feel anything anymore

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everything prepared done less hour left lifeall letters written written money transfered help want help good quality meter rope bought noose already made location chosen waiting everyone go sleep ill finally free goodbye

im tiredlast night pressed knife wrist wondered deep id cut bleed out im pussy barely cut myself spent night crying next time stop

amount creepy dms get equivalent people crush may accurate somethin anyways never got one

hope best prepare worstone day ago tried contact one girl social media really liked school fact already done blocked year ago main account talked her courage alt account add friend access profile because set private private messages they set friends only right even checked not since sent friend request late night i really scared push add friend button entire day scary me worrying outcome possibilities almost day long well really know work not right want check added me declined friend request straight blocked also really scared that so check it declined even blocked again guess try commit redflag going enough reason it stack top problems life really bad stuff like p s sorry related anything posted here wanted share side story guess well see goes

industry dropped ball this trailer movie justice opened hand full screens people opportunity see this work mouth would made successful lead actresses give great emotional performances really draw story especially characters checked based rave recommendation richard roeper ebert roeper book example great film never got fully released except screens gave chance seen movies go video quickly good oscar worthy tragedy many levels never even hear it maybe via word mouth gain following dvd cable see movie should great performances lead actresses make movie could another formulaic teen movie school special instead stands well note worthy films girl interrupted comes mind like like this br br both girls one amazing emotional scene another without coming melodramatic even though alicia angry deanna crying movie done real way come stereotypical characters melodramatic movie move many scenes aspiring actor use real performances school erica even better traffic hope actors get roles utilize talents well let shine see movie like recommend friends get lost among blockbuster crap comes every year movie buried spiderman tops records kind word living in aghhh make world right see recommend it

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need help preparing therapyhey guys first therapy appointment days want honest them cant afford get hospitalized suicidal plan months now preparing actively self harm daily impulse attempted earlier week want give best shot can know wont hospitalise unless immediate threat know line immediate is suggestions appreciated

strange dream yesterday basically standing dark room suddenly dwayne johnson appeared accidentally stabbed lightsaber didnt even know hand suddenly everything back normal woke up mean exactly force sensitive

want die pain go away never good enough even know job best mother still screams thinks mentally retarded feel miserable pathetic

hail mary pass ironicallythe church says mortal sin know selfish act living suffering fear shame years now selftalked near insanity ive kept goingtryinghoping hope deferred makes heart grow sick red said hope dangerous thing hope drive man insane utterly failed life lot fault lot isnt thinking going infection would hide act suddenly leaving seeking medical help would be least odd would hurt mother know even think redflag would torture wondering issue me waking every day loss questions would cruelty yet another seemingly endless list misdeeds im nearly famous for know im seriously considering scares yet continue plan would leave home seek infection return course protect family would find location fill gas tank etc first minimize transmission would isolate somewhere for im guessing good month isolate hotelmotel think could afford long night not even thinking food airbnb might rentable place month right doubt it money still issue would put others danger even though actively isolate obviously shelters centers etc camping maybe like read sorry novel